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Confusion

So, here's the thing....... I've never been overweight before. I wasn't a tubby child or a podgy adolescent or a fat young adult . I went to the gym 6 days a week.After having my 2 boys (9 lbs 13oz and 10lbs 3oz) I carried an extra 2 stone in weight that I never shifted (nothing too drastic there). I don't eat take-sways, I don't eat fried foods. I eat all organic. I love salad, veg and fruit. I gained weight over the last 6 years - Nursing my dad who had lung cancer and died 4 years ago in June. Prior to that, had 2 years of taking him to chemotherapy and radiotherapy whilst holding down a full-time "high power" job; raising a family and playing "corporate wife" for my OH. I missed meals; ate on the run and generally survived on adrenaline, caffeine, sugar, wine and carbs. I missed nights of sleep - too wired which made the levels of Cortisol rise in my body. I drank wine every night to try and relax. This is what caused me to gain weight. When my LLC asks me what messages I got about food as a child and what I still carry with me that makes my relationship with food dysfunctional, I don't have anything to say. The messages I got about food were all positive. I don't consider myself to have a dysfunctional relationship with food. Am I the only person following LLT that feels this way? Am I in denial? ..........

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  1. me too

    I am exactly the same been slim all my life up to the last few years, I know I piled the weight on through basic over eating because I love food! and not always healthy food lol. but I have lost all the weight now and feel ecstatic! I recognise myself in the mirror again and friends and family are so glad to have the real jane back, Obviously I've got to make major changes to my eating habits if I want to stay slim and boy do I want to stay slim!!! X
    Posted: 02/05/2012 18:19 By: browneyedgirl
  2. Confusion

    I know exactly what your mean. I too have not been overweight all my life in fact only for the last 5 years. This was after a divorce, moving to the other end of the country, being lonely and having a hugely stressful job. Before that I was always around 10 stone. I was also diagnosed with an underactive thyroid which the docs think could have caused some/all of my weight gain. Before starting LLT I had been the same weight for two years, if I had that much of a problem with food surely I would still have been piling the weight on. I am like you, I don't have anything to discuss in group but I am very happy to be loosing the weight.
    Posted: 02/05/2012 09:33 By: rosemary3